Who Am I

"The inability to experience pleasure fom activities."

I didn't know what the word "anhedonia" meant, so I had to look it up. I acknowledged it was a pretty accurate description of my current outlook on life in December of 2016. Sorrow and depression had swallowed me up and held me captive while apathy swallowed the key.

During the previous three years, I had tried very antidepressant, or combination thereof, known to man wihout success. I became familiar with more new terms: "medication resistant" and "ECT (electroconvulsive therapy)."

During my inpatient hospitalization, I experienced bilateral ECT. It helped my depression a great deal, but made my memory worse. Upon receiving outpatient ECT, my doctor changed it to unilateral ECT -- performing it on the right or "emotional" side of my brain to minimize the memory problems.

Time, supportive friends and family, prayer warriors and God's undeniable presence have provided much needed healing.

"Anhedonia" no longer accurately describes me. I am cheerishing each day and all that lies within it, whether it is a kiss from a grandchild or a wet lick from a cold-nosed canine (although some of those grandchildren kisses can be pretty wet also).

Trouble still greets meet periodically, but God has already given me His words to stand on during those times.

As I met a prospective pet sitting client this morning while walking at the dog park, I explained that I didn't have any business cards with me, but she could search "pet sitter" on Craig's List and find my ad. Upon reflection, I wondered why I hadn't mentioned my website instead?

Who am I after all? Do I even know myself?

I'm a mother of two, a grandmother of four, a writer, an intercessor, and a dog lover who cries easily.

Thank you, God, that your mercies are new everyday and that I am one with you in spirit. 

I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world. John 16:33

But whoever is united with the Lord is one with Him in spirit. 1 Cor. 6:17

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